I started writing this blog in my head three days ago and didn’t have time or bandwidth to actually write, so I scribbled some thoughts down in a notebook. I’m finally getting to sit down in some peace and quiet to gather my thoughts. This has been an unbelievably busy week getting ready for the launch of our new church plant this coming Sunday. All the last minute details have kept us running all week, and we have been preoccupied with making sure everything is ready to go for the launch service. Our kids are also on spring break this week, so it hasn’t been very easy to get work done. I’m exhausted, to say the very least.
The Lord started speaking to me earlier this week about His outrageous grace when I found myself utterly exhausted mentally, physically, and emotionally from all the work of this new church plant. Don’t get me wrong, I love every minute of it, but it’s a lot of work. God very clearly spoke to me the verse in 2 Corinthians 12:9, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Just when I started feeling like I just can’t do this…I’m not a spring chick anymore…I’m too tired…I’m not a church planter…I have no idea what I’m doing…the Lord reminded me that it’s not about me. It’s about Him. He has me exactly where He wants me – at the end of myself. And at the end of myself is where I find His outrageous grace waiting for me. It was there the whole time. I just didn’t see it.
I started thinking a lot about that phrase “my power is made perfect in weakness”. When there is less of me, there is more of Him. When I am weak, He is strong. Isn’t that the way it should be? He wants me to be dependent upon Him, because that is how His power is made perfect. I realized that if He made me sufficient in my own strength, I wouldn’t need to rely on Him. That was one of those ah-ha moments for me. I don’t want to be self-sufficient. I want to be dependent upon His grace so that I am constantly seeking Him. It takes the focus off of me and puts it on Him, where it should be.
So, as I anticipate this very important weekend and all that it will bring, I can know that my God has promised that His grace is sufficient. He has called me and anointed me for this task, and He will give me the grace I need for it. His power is made perfect in my weakness, because of His outrageous grace.