I started writing this blog in my head three days ago and didn’t have time or bandwidth to actually write, so I scribbled some thoughts down in a notebook. I’m finally getting to sit down in some peace and quiet to gather my thoughts. This has been an unbelievably busy week getting ready for the launch of our new church plant this coming Sunday. All the last minute details have kept us running all week, and we have been preoccupied with making sure everything is ready to go for the launch service. Our kids are also on spring break this week, so it hasn’t been very easy to get work done. I’m exhausted, to say the very least.
The Lord started speaking to me earlier this week about His outrageous grace when I found myself utterly exhausted mentally, physically, and emotionally from all the work of this new church plant. Don’t get me wrong, I love every minute of it, but it’s a lot of work. God very clearly spoke to me the verse in 2 Corinthians 12:9, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Just when I started feeling like I just can’t do this…I’m not a spring chick anymore…I’m too tired…I’m not a church planter…I have no idea what I’m doing…the Lord reminded me that it’s not about me. It’s about Him. He has me exactly where He wants me – at the end of myself. And at the end of myself is where I find His outrageous grace waiting for me. It was there the whole time. I just didn’t see it.
I started thinking a lot about that phrase “my power is made perfect in weakness”. When there is less of me, there is more of Him. When I am weak, He is strong. Isn’t that the way it should be? He wants me to be dependent upon Him, because that is how His power is made perfect. I realized that if He made me sufficient in my own strength, I wouldn’t need to rely on Him. That was one of those ah-ha moments for me. I don’t want to be self-sufficient. I want to be dependent upon His grace so that I am constantly seeking Him. It takes the focus off of me and puts it on Him, where it should be.
So, as I anticipate this very important weekend and all that it will bring, I can know that my God has promised that His grace is sufficient. He has called me and anointed me for this task, and He will give me the grace I need for it. His power is made perfect in my weakness, because of His outrageous grace.
Good thoughts, Tricia.
Love this! Something we all need reminded of on a regular basis. I’ll be praying for you all this weekend. Love you!
Hey Tricia, really good to see you. I enjoy the blog too, especially this one. It’s a great piece and well written, even timely! I can personally relate to your current circumstances and experiences (even though I’m not church planting). Can we really follow God, in faith, when in the natural we can’t see two steps in front of us – scary position? This has been a challenge for me over the past 8 years (as you’ll know) and I’m learning, all the time. I have seen God do remarkable things at just the right time and I’m learning to keep my peace – He is in control and I’m not. It’s been a massive learning curve, as I’ve had no mental, physical or emotional ability to effect a positive outcome – “His power is made perfect in my weakness.” Well, Lord, I have a whole bunch of weakness right now and I am desperate for your intervention! ‘m glad God didn’t check my resume before deciding whether or not to lend a hand! Thank’s Lord, you’re amazingly good.
Tricia, you won’t know this but…There is something I’ve often thought about over the last 8 years – Thank you so much for putting me back on the health insurance that day I had the seizure. When I came around in the ambulance, under a state of panic, all I could think about was how an earth I was going to cover the medical bill with no income or means to pay. At this stage, I felt ripped apart internally. I couldn’t understand the weight of the suffering. So, thank you for being there and helping my family and I in our desperate time of weakness.
“His power is made perfect in my weakness.”
Much love to the family.