Sometimes life can feel like a whirlwind. There’s no other way to say it. I feel like I have been caught up in a whirlwind…actually, maybe a tornado…the last few weeks. Three weeks ago we launched our new church. It was a great weekend, but an unbelievably crazy busy weekend. We saw an attendance of 240 people on Launch Sunday! It was thrilling and scary at the same time. It was a dream realized, but a huge responsibility and chock full of stress.
The second Sunday was Easter, and the Monday following Easter we found ourselves in the hospital. My husband had what we thought was a severe stomach virus. He was dehydrated and couldn’t keep any food down. So, off to the hospital we went. The doctors thought maybe he had an ulcer. Imagine that…an ulcer. I chuckled on the inside knowing the amount of stress we had experienced the last couple of weeks. So he went home with some medications for an ulcer. Then after being home for two days with absolutely no relief of his symptoms, we went back to the hospital. They released him again with some different medications. In the meantime, some amazing prayer warriors from our new church had been doing battle on my husband’s behalf. They had been praying outside the hospital, taking authority over the Enemy as well as asking the Lord for a miracle healing. They ministered to us and prayed for us like nobody’s business! It was amazing. Then every test the doctors did came back negative, even the scope looking for an ulcer. They couldn’t find anything wrong and the symptoms just disappeared as quickly as they started.
After that terrible week we had our third service and the attendance that weekend took a hit. My husband called it the ending to “hell” week. He felt like he had been through the wringer all week and then this just topped it all off. We were discouraged, but then we also realized that this was surely a major spiritual attack from the Enemy to discourage us. We determined then and there that we would not allow these circumstances to deter us. We would not let the Enemy get any leverage out of this attack.
The following week we began to wonder if God might be calling us to put our house on the market and move into the community where our new church is meeting. After we had talked and prayed about this a day or so, two different men told us that God had given them a word for us regarding the possibility of God moving us. Very interesting but very disturbing at the same time! You see…just four years ago we built the house we are currently living in, and it has been my dream home. I picked the design, colors, decor…everything. It is exactly the way I wanted it. I don’t want to move and leave my house…not in the least. But, after praying and hearing the prophetic words these men had conveyed to us, I just couldn’t deny the fact that maybe God was leading us to sell our house. It is definitely not what I want. So I was driving just a couple of days ago and thinking and praying at the same time, when I felt that God asked me if I was willing to give up my house. I decided that I trust God enough that I would be willing to give up my house. So, that is what we are going to do.
It sure feels like I’m in a tornado of change. Not the most comfortable place to be, but God has been asking me, “Do you trust me?”, and my answer is yes. Yes, Lord, I do trust you. I’m all in, and that is because I know and am confident that “in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” Romans 8:28. That doesn’t mean that the tornado will stop anytime soon, but it does mean that I can trust Him to carry me through it because I know that He is working for my good.